“Why are you crying?” I picked Aaliyah up and sat her on the counter.
“I want daddy.” She said and I rolled my eyes.
“What did he tell you?”
“Big girls don’t cry.”
“Okay and are you a big girl or still a baby?”
“A big girl.”
“Alright then. Stop crying. Besides he’s on his way now I’m telling him what you said to your teacher. And you crying is giving me a headache.” I said and she wiped her face. You see Aaliyah is four going on thirty. This little girl is too grown for own damn good. Having a smart daughter is a blessing and a headache. On one hand I’m glad I’m not raising a dumb baby. But on the other hand. Her mouth is ridiculous. I wonder where she gets that shit from.
“Kai!” I heard Chris yell then the front door close. Aaliyah jumped down and went running out of the room.
“Daddy!” She screamed and I just shook my head. That little girl I swear. A couple of seconds later Chris came walking in holding her.
“Hey baby.” He said in my ear then kissed me on the cheek.
“Hey, how was the studio?”
“Normal. Nothing too special. Wassup with you?”
‘Okay this one.” I said pointing at Liyah and she hid her face in his neck. “Don’t hide your face now. I told you I was telling right.”
“What she do?”
“Her mouth.” I said and he looked at her then sat her on the counter.
“What did you say?” He asked her but she didn’t look up. “What she say Kai?”
“She hit some little girl in her class then called her a bald headed heifer.”
“What she hit her for?”
“Well Ms. Aaliyah here thought the girl was taking too long on the monkey bars so when she got off she pushed her and the girl scratched her face on the ground.” I said and he sighed. Did I mention she had a hand problem? Once again I have no idea where she get that shit from.
“Aaliyah what did I tell you about your mouth and your hands huh?” He asked her but she didn’t look at him. “No stop looking down. You wasn’t scared to push that little girl right.” He picked her face up. “What did I tell you?”
“To watch my mouth because I’m not grown.”
“And I don’t put my hands on anybody unless they hit me first.”
“Exactly so why are you not listening.”
“I don’t know.”
“Don’t give me that. Go upstairs to your room, don’t turn that TV on, don’t touch nothing. Just sit there and think.” He put her down on the floor and she started crying. “Aaliyah do not start that crying. Go upstairs before you get something to cry for.” He semi-yelled and she went. He shook his head and looked at me. “You know she get all of that shit from you right?”
“No she don’t. Don’t even go there.”
“Kai. Yes she do. What you talking about? And why you didn’t handle it before I came?”
“First of all who said I didn’t. I got her little ass good when we first got home. You just make her feel guilty.” I said laughing and he shrugged.
“Whatever, that aint the point.” He came in front of me and kissed me on the lips. “When the last time I been in my shit.”
“I don’t know.” I wrapped my arms around his neck. “I think it was this morning before I got Aaliyah up.”
“That long? Damn.” He picked me up and sat me on the counter. “We need to work on my boy.” He said and I sighed.
“Here we go.” I said sucking my teeth.
“You just dropped a bucket of water on my sexual flame. Why do you always have to bring that up.”
“Bring what up? My wife giving me a son?”
“Well your wife aint ready for that.”
“Kai’s it’s been two years ma. You can’t still be stuck on losing him bae.”
“Well I am Chris and I really don’t want to talk about this right now.” I pushed him back and got off the counter.
“Kai, look I’m sorry aight. I just want you to give me another baby but I will wait until you’re ready aight.” He said and I nodded. “I love you aight.” He said hugging me putting his chin on the top of my head.
“I love you too.”
“I know.” He kissed me on the cheek and smiled. “Now make my dinner woman.” He said slapping my ass.
“Nigga move.” I pushed him laughing and he winked then walked out of the kitchen. I swear that nigga gives me life.
“She moved mommy.” Zion said when he had his face up against my stomach.
“I know, she moving too much. But you know she can hear you right?”
“Yes. Daddy told me.” He smiled and I laughed.
“Your daddy tells a lot. But come on you got to go to bed.” I said and he pouted.
“I want to wait for daddy.”
“Zion it is almost 12 o’clock. I let you stay up this late but now you have to go to bed okay. Come on.” I got off the couch and we went upstairs to his room.
“Mommy why daddy don’t tuck me in anymore.” He asked and I sighed.
“Your daddy is working. Remember he talked to you about it.”
“Alright then. Come on lay down.” He got in his bed and I pulled the covers over him. “See you in the morning okay.” I said and he nodded. “Give me kiss.” We pecked lips then I kissed him on the forehead. “Good night.” I turned his light off then walked down to our bedroom and laid down. This not being here on time at night shit was becoming a habit and a headache. The last almost three years for us have been good with minor disagreements of course. But that’s just us.
Zion aka my heartbeat is three now and getting more and more like his father every day. But at the same time he’s like me so much it’s scary. He can be the sweetest little boy ever or a fucking nightmare and when he does do that acting up shit. My hand speaks for me. He does like testing me a lot. But he won’t try that shit with his father for shit which I don’t get since Ty doesn’t even do anything to his ass but glare at him with those eyes that match his perfectly. I think by now you’ve caught on that I’m pregnant once again. Five months to be exact, this time with a girl. Why the Lord thought it would be a good idea for me to have a daughter I do not know but this shit will be a damn trip.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard my phone ringing. I picked it up and laughed when I saw Kai calling me. I answered the phone putting it on speaker.
“Yo!” I said when I answered.
“What you doing big ass.” She said and I laughed.
“Nothing I’m just laying waiting for this nigga to come home from the damn studio.”
“Damn he still there?”
“Yeah. What you doing?”
“Nothing Chris fucked my mood up earlier though.”
“What he do?”
“Keep bugging me about having another baby.” She said and I could hear the annoyance in her voice.
“Kai it’s been three years ma.”
“I know but that don’t make losing my son easier. I just don’t want to go through that shit again.”
“Go through what?”
“Losing another baby Z.” She said and I sighed. Now we getting to where the problem is. She doesn’t mind having another baby but her ass is scared she’s gonna lose it.
“Kai, you can’t be scared of that. Shit I’m right along with you. I lost a baby before too.”
“I know but-“
“But nothing. Kai you just have to move on and stop being scared aight.”
“I hear you. So where my little munchkin?”
“Kai, it’s almost 12. His ass is asleep. Where Liyah at.”
“Oh that demon child is asleep. Chris had her sitting in her room all day.”
“Because her mouth and she pushed some little girl in school today. Made the girl cut her face and everything because she took too long on the monkey bars. I don’t know where she get that shit from.”
“Kai be serious.”
“She get that shit from you. Fuck you mean.” I said and we both laughed.
“Nah I wasn’t that bad. She’s I don’t even know. But this aint about me. She bad as hell for no reason.”
“You saying that like Zion is a complete angel. Hell to the no.”
“Speaking of angels hows the little honey bun in your oven.” She said and I laughed.
“What y’all naming her?”
“I don’t know.”
“Like I told you with Zion you know that nigga obsessed with Egypt and shit. Probably gon try and name her Cleopatra.”
“Kai don’t play with me.” I said cracking up.
“No wait. He gon name her Nefertiti.” She said and we both laughed harder.
“Shut the fuck up Kai damn.”
“I’m sorry but that was funny. Shit, but um rewind I just had a good idea for a name.”
“What about Egypt?” She said and I smiled.
“Are you gonna come up with all my kids names?”
“Yeah pretty much. But I think it’s cute.”
“I do too. Fine her name is Egypt.”
“Yay! What’s her middle name?”
“I don’t know. I’ll figure that out later.” I said just as I hear the front door close downstairs.
“Better I want to know already. You know I hate waiting.”
“Nikaiah go to bed. This jackass just came in the house.”
“At a quarter to midnight? Uh oh he’s in trouble. Call me tomorrow. Love you.”
“Love you too.” I said then hung up. I sat up with my back up against the headboard and looked at the door. When he walked in the door he took his jacket off and looked at me.
“Why you still up?” He asked.
“I’m up because I was waiting for you to come home. Do me a favor.”
“What time that clock got?” I said and he looked at it.
“Okay so you care to tell me why the fuck you walking in here at almost midnight?”
“Zaria don’t start that shit.”
“I aint starting shit. You started it when you walked yo ass in here like it wasn’t a fucking problem.”
“Why you yelling? You trying to wake Zion the fuck up or something.”
“Now you worried about him being sleep? Nigga for the last three weeks I’m been here pregnant as fuck putting him to bed by my damn self. Fuck you mean.”
“I been working.”
“Working, working, working. That’s all you fucking care about lately. Damn I get it you’re a rapper I know that but damn can you take time out to be a damn father.”
“I’m being a father fuck you mean Z. That’s what the fuck a father does. I’m working to take care of us don’t give me this bullshit.”
“So you don’t feel like you’re away too much? Tell me.”
“No! I don’t! I’m working but I’m here too.”
“So you know everything that’s going on. You aint missing nothing?”
“Alright so you know that Zion got his ass popped the other day for cursing in class? You know that in the last three weeks I been to his school having to talk to his teachers about his behavior five times. Oh and do you know that he whines to me every fucking night about why his daddy aint here to put him to bed. Or to even take him to school. That’s why he acts out. He wants you there. Whenever I show up he gets disappointed because it’s not you walking through the door. But you here though right!” I yelled and he sighed running his hands down his face. “Yeah that’s exactly what the fuck I thought.”
I sat back and rubbed my stomach. I hated arguing with him but sometimes he just don’t get the fucking point I try to make. He just wants to be right and refuses to be wrong. Which is bullshit.
“Zaria look. I’m sorry aight. I didn’t even realize how much shit I was missing.”
“I’m trying to apologize watch the fucking attitude.” He said and I sighed.
“Fine. Keep talking.”
“Like I was saying. I’m sorry. But I’m just working to make sure you and my kids have everything you want and need ma.”
“I know that. I’m not telling you to stop working by no means. But I need you to be here too. Just divide your time better aight.”
“I got you ma. I’m sorry aight.” He came over to me and kissed me on the lips then kissed my stomach. “How she doing?”
“Egypt is fine.” I said and he looked at me with an eyebrow raised.
“Yeah cute right.”
“Yeah it aight. Who came up with it?”
“Kai.” I said laughing.
“I should’ve known. What the hell is she the official baby namer now and shit?”
“I don’t know. But I think it’s cute so she did good.”
“Yeah I guess. You not mad right?”
“Right now? No not anymore. Just do what I said.”
“I got you aight. I’ll be here more.”
“Alright that’s all I want. I love you.” I kissed him and he smiled.
“I love you too.” He said kissing me again. Even though we deal with bullshit. I’m loving my life right now.